Welcome April 2010. Welcome the unfriendly me.
March 2010 was one of those months where everything went wrong. Too many to list down, which resulted me in being the unfriendly me. I set my playlist to emo and angst mode when I take the train in the morning. And as April begins, there signs of improvement look dim.
Workwise everything has gone downhill. Think I should update my resume and start sending them out again. The political play going on at my workplace is too much. I'm just one of those simple folk. I just do my job and I'm done. I don't care in your quest for power of over-throwing people. And I for one do not pledge my loyalty to anyone.
I think the work issues got to me after they sent me to some teambuilding exercise, which was a total waste of my wasted time. I surrounded by dinosaurs, people for have been with the company for donkey years. I don't mind that, but they just haven't changed with the times. Times have changed, its a bigger world now. Just let it go. Or just do what I do, leave the company. Why make yourself miserable being with people who you resent. Just let it go and move on (which is what I'm plotting at the moment).
The wedding preparations itself will start taking its toll on me. Now I remember why I didn't want to go through this process in the first place. Its to bloody expensive! No one understands the simple I mean when I want a simple reception. Yes I know, my friends all warn me about it being a parents gig and all I have to do is stay out of the way. All I wanted was a one day event (for both the nikah and reception) with just around 50 guests. Why invite the whole planet? And I'm not a fan of all this local traditions where everything is expensive.
The cost of these things are really getting to me. I am one of those people who probably enjoyed being single too much that I can buy anything I want. All the toys and gadgets. I must have more toys than NASA. Now I have to sacrifice and put aside all that. Not an easy adjustment, especially when Mark I has come to an end. Besides, why spend all the money on one party, when there is a lifetime to go.
With three months to, I doubt I can enjoy any weekends till then. Everyone seems to be concern with the event, but the main thing has yet been done. The registration process. I am more concern about that than the other arrangements. The HIV test, the endless amount of forms and such, the meeting of the jurunikah. And people say I'm not looking at the big picture. Point of note, for the state of Selangor, you can start registering 3 months before the event. Which is exactly by next weekend I have to start doing the necessary.
Another note, after making some progress getting lighter, I got heavier again, as all the stress has made me go for some comfort food.
I guess I'm feeling way down because of too many setbacks and too many things that I could rely on has failed me. Need to pick myself up.
March 2010 was one of those months where everything went wrong. Too many to list down, which resulted me in being the unfriendly me. I set my playlist to emo and angst mode when I take the train in the morning. And as April begins, there signs of improvement look dim.
Workwise everything has gone downhill. Think I should update my resume and start sending them out again. The political play going on at my workplace is too much. I'm just one of those simple folk. I just do my job and I'm done. I don't care in your quest for power of over-throwing people. And I for one do not pledge my loyalty to anyone.
I think the work issues got to me after they sent me to some teambuilding exercise, which was a total waste of my wasted time. I surrounded by dinosaurs, people for have been with the company for donkey years. I don't mind that, but they just haven't changed with the times. Times have changed, its a bigger world now. Just let it go. Or just do what I do, leave the company. Why make yourself miserable being with people who you resent. Just let it go and move on (which is what I'm plotting at the moment).
The wedding preparations itself will start taking its toll on me. Now I remember why I didn't want to go through this process in the first place. Its to bloody expensive! No one understands the simple I mean when I want a simple reception. Yes I know, my friends all warn me about it being a parents gig and all I have to do is stay out of the way. All I wanted was a one day event (for both the nikah and reception) with just around 50 guests. Why invite the whole planet? And I'm not a fan of all this local traditions where everything is expensive.
The cost of these things are really getting to me. I am one of those people who probably enjoyed being single too much that I can buy anything I want. All the toys and gadgets. I must have more toys than NASA. Now I have to sacrifice and put aside all that. Not an easy adjustment, especially when Mark I has come to an end. Besides, why spend all the money on one party, when there is a lifetime to go.
With three months to, I doubt I can enjoy any weekends till then. Everyone seems to be concern with the event, but the main thing has yet been done. The registration process. I am more concern about that than the other arrangements. The HIV test, the endless amount of forms and such, the meeting of the jurunikah. And people say I'm not looking at the big picture. Point of note, for the state of Selangor, you can start registering 3 months before the event. Which is exactly by next weekend I have to start doing the necessary.
Another note, after making some progress getting lighter, I got heavier again, as all the stress has made me go for some comfort food.
I guess I'm feeling way down because of too many setbacks and too many things that I could rely on has failed me. Need to pick myself up.
1 comment:
My friend some friendly advise:
1. Stay calm;
2. Focus;
3. Stay in control;
4. Get a really good night sleep;
5. Always communicate with your better half;
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